My boss told me i was looking a bit 'trim' today...
FEELS GOOD x
Thursday, 29 November 2012
HELP! let me vent!
Ok so this post may not directly be linked to me losing weight, but i need to.... NEED TO get something off my chest...
I think that people that eat with their mouths open are just plain RUDE!
It is my pet hate to be able to hear someone eat.... it is like fingers down a black board.
You know what, its not even just eating with your mouth open, it is agressively chewing something aswell. There is just no need for it. Calm down, relax and enjoy what you are eating. You dont need to smash your carrot stick into tiny little pieces as hard as you can!!! Now, dont get me wrong, i know some foods are crunchy and that a little noise cant be helped, but there is a limit, I should know, i have done my fair share of eating.
I was bought up to acknowledge that eating with your mouth shut was polite and just plain good manners- Why do some grown people not understand this. I find it BEYOND frustrating!
Vent over, for now. x
I think that people that eat with their mouths open are just plain RUDE!
It is my pet hate to be able to hear someone eat.... it is like fingers down a black board.
You know what, its not even just eating with your mouth open, it is agressively chewing something aswell. There is just no need for it. Calm down, relax and enjoy what you are eating. You dont need to smash your carrot stick into tiny little pieces as hard as you can!!! Now, dont get me wrong, i know some foods are crunchy and that a little noise cant be helped, but there is a limit, I should know, i have done my fair share of eating.
I was bought up to acknowledge that eating with your mouth shut was polite and just plain good manners- Why do some grown people not understand this. I find it BEYOND frustrating!
Vent over, for now. x
Monday, 26 November 2012
How do people make it through life without a sister?
Upon reading my blog, GG sent me this...
http://voices.yahoo.com/causes-weight-gain-instead-weight-loss-while-6282144.html
Could i be any luckier than to have the 2 best friends ever, who also happen to be my sisters?
Sigh x
http://voices.yahoo.com/causes-weight-gain-instead-weight-loss-while-6282144.html
Could i be any luckier than to have the 2 best friends ever, who also happen to be my sisters?
Sigh x
Black Monday.
Today is a very Black day!
i dont want to talk to anyone, i dont want to see anyone, i want to stay in bed all day.
I havent felt this low in a REALLY long time!
i actually put on 100grams this week and I know its not much and i have still lost over 4 kgs in 6 weeks, but it hit me really hard. I am working so hard and trying with all of my will poweer to make this work, so when i take a step backwards i feel like a major failure.
All I want is to lose weight. Seriously! I would give up nearly everything in my life to be able to to lose the weight that i want.... It is so hard, doing this. Motivating myself, keeping in the end point in sight, knowing that what i am soing should be working...
You know, even last night I really just wanted to chill out on the couch, but I went for a run. It was the last thing i wanted to do, I had just got home from my parents house and really just felt like lying down and watching a movie, but i DIDNT!!!!!!
I still havent had any alcohol in 3 weeks, i dont eat chocolate or lollies, i dont have soft drink.... Seriously. what the frick! I am so angry and devastated about this week, completely crushed!
i dont want to talk to anyone, i dont want to see anyone, i want to stay in bed all day.
I havent felt this low in a REALLY long time!
i actually put on 100grams this week and I know its not much and i have still lost over 4 kgs in 6 weeks, but it hit me really hard. I am working so hard and trying with all of my will poweer to make this work, so when i take a step backwards i feel like a major failure.
All I want is to lose weight. Seriously! I would give up nearly everything in my life to be able to to lose the weight that i want.... It is so hard, doing this. Motivating myself, keeping in the end point in sight, knowing that what i am soing should be working...
You know, even last night I really just wanted to chill out on the couch, but I went for a run. It was the last thing i wanted to do, I had just got home from my parents house and really just felt like lying down and watching a movie, but i DIDNT!!!!!!
I still havent had any alcohol in 3 weeks, i dont eat chocolate or lollies, i dont have soft drink.... Seriously. what the frick! I am so angry and devastated about this week, completely crushed!
Thursday, 22 November 2012
Oops....
I havent had a very good week this week, at least thats how I feel...
I feel like i havent stuck to my eating like i should have been, not that i have been bad, havent eaten anything really that bad or had any alcohol or soft drink but i just feel as though i have been letting the odd thing slide... And i have had some lollies at work today... and instead of having rice crackers with tzatsiki for lunch i have been having chicken & mayo baguettes and the like... this makes me worried.
Also, my excersise hasnt been as full on as normal. Had horrible leg pains monday night and only walked around the tan before catcing the tram home... Had a rest on tuesday night cos i was off being social and just went for a walk around the tan last night with a friend...
SO... i have 4 days (3 and 1/2, really) to kick my arse back into gear.
Tonight, run round the tan AND netball. Steak and Veggies for dinner. Lock that in!
Going back down Geelong way on the weekend to see my parents, i will just make sure i dont eat too much and i will do some runs down there, nothing like a bit of fresh country air in your lungs...
God i hope i still have a good result this week, i will be devo'd if i havent lost a good amount....
Fingers crossed x
I feel like i havent stuck to my eating like i should have been, not that i have been bad, havent eaten anything really that bad or had any alcohol or soft drink but i just feel as though i have been letting the odd thing slide... And i have had some lollies at work today... and instead of having rice crackers with tzatsiki for lunch i have been having chicken & mayo baguettes and the like... this makes me worried.
Also, my excersise hasnt been as full on as normal. Had horrible leg pains monday night and only walked around the tan before catcing the tram home... Had a rest on tuesday night cos i was off being social and just went for a walk around the tan last night with a friend...
SO... i have 4 days (3 and 1/2, really) to kick my arse back into gear.
Tonight, run round the tan AND netball. Steak and Veggies for dinner. Lock that in!
Going back down Geelong way on the weekend to see my parents, i will just make sure i dont eat too much and i will do some runs down there, nothing like a bit of fresh country air in your lungs...
God i hope i still have a good result this week, i will be devo'd if i havent lost a good amount....
Fingers crossed x
Tuesday, 20 November 2012
Only Human
Last night, despite a great result from the previous week, was one of my hardest tan expeditions to date.
On Sunday i went for a run and man did I push it, it was the BEST run i have done in the last 5 weeks, i really pushed myself to run that little bit harder and i felt amazing for it. I felt different while i was running and stronger and fitter and totally cuffed with myself.
Last night, different story. Different person it felt like.
I have been writing about how good running is making me feel and how it is such a great decision and i love it and its great and blah blah blah blah, well let me tell you, it certainly was not the case last night!
I wanted to crawl under a park bench and cry a little and maybe take a nap!
My legs were killing me, KILLING me and my body did just not want to do it, my mind wasnt there either. Honestly, it was just awful. So after i ran half the way and habbled the rest (God, i can imagine how pathetic i looked) i called my mum (Bless!) and had a massive whinge, perhaps a few tears, dont judge me, and got on the tram to take me up Toorak road. yes, the tram. yes, i felt massive amounts of guilt. But the worst part was the frustration. It has been 5 long weeks and i am starting to het results but i still have a day when i cant do it. i wanted to punch something last night, like really just unleash a beat down.... lucky i was alone!
But you know what? I AM only human, i am allowed to have an off day. I am allowed to hurt and struggle occasionally. And i most certainly am allowed to get frustrated and angry.
So tonight I am going to be social so i actually cant excercise and i am hoping a rest for 1 night will do me some good.
I will just have to punicsh the track tomorrow night. x
On Sunday i went for a run and man did I push it, it was the BEST run i have done in the last 5 weeks, i really pushed myself to run that little bit harder and i felt amazing for it. I felt different while i was running and stronger and fitter and totally cuffed with myself.
Last night, different story. Different person it felt like.
I have been writing about how good running is making me feel and how it is such a great decision and i love it and its great and blah blah blah blah, well let me tell you, it certainly was not the case last night!
I wanted to crawl under a park bench and cry a little and maybe take a nap!
My legs were killing me, KILLING me and my body did just not want to do it, my mind wasnt there either. Honestly, it was just awful. So after i ran half the way and habbled the rest (God, i can imagine how pathetic i looked) i called my mum (Bless!) and had a massive whinge, perhaps a few tears, dont judge me, and got on the tram to take me up Toorak road. yes, the tram. yes, i felt massive amounts of guilt. But the worst part was the frustration. It has been 5 long weeks and i am starting to het results but i still have a day when i cant do it. i wanted to punch something last night, like really just unleash a beat down.... lucky i was alone!
But you know what? I AM only human, i am allowed to have an off day. I am allowed to hurt and struggle occasionally. And i most certainly am allowed to get frustrated and angry.
So tonight I am going to be social so i actually cant excercise and i am hoping a rest for 1 night will do me some good.
I will just have to punicsh the track tomorrow night. x
Here it comes.....
So, obviously, yesterday was monday, so that equals weigh in day...... hold your breath....
ANOTHER 1.7KGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? well you better! that makes 3.2kgs in 2 weeks!
this is exactly the motivation that i have been craving to keep me going.
So here it comes, i can feel its about the start dropping off.... x
ANOTHER 1.7KGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? well you better! that makes 3.2kgs in 2 weeks!
this is exactly the motivation that i have been craving to keep me going.
So here it comes, i can feel its about the start dropping off.... x
Monday, 12 November 2012
hard words or too hard to hear?
Do you think that there are some things that you need to hear not matter how hard it is to hear them?
Do you think that hearing the hard things motivate you or do you think they just knock you down too much?
when they come from loved ones, you know they are coming from a place of love and support but does that make them hurt less?
I love my family, ALOT! they are my biggest fans and supporters and i would be totally and utterly lost without each and everyone of them.... And for the most part i really value their hoesty, more than i would value my friends....
i dont know what i am trying to say here, i guess things become a reality when you hear the thoughts you have been thinking inside your head spoken out loud, from someone else... Does this even make sense?
i feel like I am talking dribble and talking in circles, I guess what i am getting at is does it make it easier or harder to hear the truth?
For me i am sure that it has been a big motivater, not that the things i have heard have been easy to hear, but when you finally realise that people have noticed how big you have gotten and are agreeing with you when you say how much weight you want to lose, or even that you are overweight and need to lose weight, it makes it a reality. Well for me, it made it a reality and really lit that fire under me to finally commit to doing something about it.
Just want to make them proud x
Do you think that hearing the hard things motivate you or do you think they just knock you down too much?
when they come from loved ones, you know they are coming from a place of love and support but does that make them hurt less?
I love my family, ALOT! they are my biggest fans and supporters and i would be totally and utterly lost without each and everyone of them.... And for the most part i really value their hoesty, more than i would value my friends....
i dont know what i am trying to say here, i guess things become a reality when you hear the thoughts you have been thinking inside your head spoken out loud, from someone else... Does this even make sense?
i feel like I am talking dribble and talking in circles, I guess what i am getting at is does it make it easier or harder to hear the truth?
For me i am sure that it has been a big motivater, not that the things i have heard have been easy to hear, but when you finally realise that people have noticed how big you have gotten and are agreeing with you when you say how much weight you want to lose, or even that you are overweight and need to lose weight, it makes it a reality. Well for me, it made it a reality and really lit that fire under me to finally commit to doing something about it.
Just want to make them proud x
Down and UP!!!!
So... we all know that I had a pretty bad week last week. went up 1kg, worst resulkt EVER.
this week I lost 1.7!!!!!!! that is so massive, i am quietly pretty cuffed with myself today!
And i think i know the main reason.... I have not TOUCHED a drop of alcohol all week! thats pretty hard to ignore when i pull in the big results.
Although I am very happy with my results this week and feel like i can easily maintain the way i ate.excercised last week I am very weary of not getting too ahead of myself. Last time i lost a big amount i put weight on the next week.
Now i know i drank alot and my eating wasnt where it should have been but i just dont want to get that same dissapointment if i go backwards again so i just trying to keep it real.
keeping a lid on it x
this week I lost 1.7!!!!!!! that is so massive, i am quietly pretty cuffed with myself today!
And i think i know the main reason.... I have not TOUCHED a drop of alcohol all week! thats pretty hard to ignore when i pull in the big results.
Although I am very happy with my results this week and feel like i can easily maintain the way i ate.excercised last week I am very weary of not getting too ahead of myself. Last time i lost a big amount i put weight on the next week.
Now i know i drank alot and my eating wasnt where it should have been but i just dont want to get that same dissapointment if i go backwards again so i just trying to keep it real.
keeping a lid on it x
Monday, 5 November 2012
I'm pretty when I'm drunk....
I have not had a good week. put on 1 kg, yes, put on, but let's not dwell on that...
Lets think about why this happened.... oh yeah, i drank alot. Well maybe not alot, but more than normal!
monday night i went out to the pub and had a fair few glasses of wine, friday night went out for dinner and had the best part of a bottle of wine, saturday night went out and had more than a bottle of wine.
ok so i havent actually thought about it all together until just now and man do i feel stupid! what did i think was going to happen?
so here is my plan... i am not going to drink for the next 6 months..... YES! i am being deadly serious here! 2 exceptions, because let's face it, there has to be some exceptions.
1- Christmas, i already have plans to drink some good red wine with my dad and to be honest that is about the only thing i am looking forward to about Xmas day. (except of course spending the day with you, Mum!)
2- My birthday. hey, you only turn 26 once and birthdays should be fun and carefree!
what is really the point in drinking? tell me cos i would really like to know... it makes me forget about my issues, temporarily, and then i feel even worse the next day and then i put on weight. Oh yeah that makes total sense! duh!!
So now i have put it out there, to all of you. that i will not be a drinker anymore.
Water, anyone? x
Lets think about why this happened.... oh yeah, i drank alot. Well maybe not alot, but more than normal!
monday night i went out to the pub and had a fair few glasses of wine, friday night went out for dinner and had the best part of a bottle of wine, saturday night went out and had more than a bottle of wine.
ok so i havent actually thought about it all together until just now and man do i feel stupid! what did i think was going to happen?
so here is my plan... i am not going to drink for the next 6 months..... YES! i am being deadly serious here! 2 exceptions, because let's face it, there has to be some exceptions.
1- Christmas, i already have plans to drink some good red wine with my dad and to be honest that is about the only thing i am looking forward to about Xmas day. (except of course spending the day with you, Mum!)
2- My birthday. hey, you only turn 26 once and birthdays should be fun and carefree!
what is really the point in drinking? tell me cos i would really like to know... it makes me forget about my issues, temporarily, and then i feel even worse the next day and then i put on weight. Oh yeah that makes total sense! duh!!
So now i have put it out there, to all of you. that i will not be a drinker anymore.
Water, anyone? x
Friday, 2 November 2012
reason number 57829 to lose weight
.... So i dont get asked to try on the XL garment in a size set fitting at work...
Massive sad face!
Massive sad face!
a little push
so, just quickly, I have discovered something to give me that little push to get my mojo back.
Shopping on ASOS. Wait, hear me out.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE ASOS! BUT.... i can only buy a small selection of things on there. I know what i can't get away with wearing. But when I see all these gorgeous summer flippy dresses and skirts i want, nay, NEED to be able to wear them.
6 months, look for me. I will be the one in the short skirt and tank top. Yep, in the middle of May, I dont care. x
Shopping on ASOS. Wait, hear me out.
I LOVE LOVE LOVE ASOS! BUT.... i can only buy a small selection of things on there. I know what i can't get away with wearing. But when I see all these gorgeous summer flippy dresses and skirts i want, nay, NEED to be able to wear them.
6 months, look for me. I will be the one in the short skirt and tank top. Yep, in the middle of May, I dont care. x
Walk this way...
So lately (this week) i have been feeling a bit different. For the past 3 weeks i have been killing myself around the tan and feeling guilty if i wasnt running the whole way. This week i dont want to run. This week i have been walking. This week i am not feeling as pumped up.
Why?
Is it ok if i just walk? I mean, I am walking the whole way, I'm not taking short cuts, so technically I am still doing a fair chunk of exercise. But is it still going to help me make the change and see that result that I want? this makes me nervous. But it still doesnt make me want to run.
What's going on Brain? why you change your mood so rapidly?
I know I have blogged in the last few weeks about how great i am feeling, but not this week! Definately not this week. I feel flat, out of sorts, low. There is an anxiety bubble in my tummy and a lump in my throat. I know that it is normal to have highs and lows, i totally get that which is why I'm not in a panic over it, but that doesnt mean I like it.
Well I cant run home tonight cos i have to go to the dentist (joy!) but I am hoping that after that i will feel like going out and having amybe just a slow job around the tan.
I want to get that hunger back.
Cross your fingers for me x
Why?
Is it ok if i just walk? I mean, I am walking the whole way, I'm not taking short cuts, so technically I am still doing a fair chunk of exercise. But is it still going to help me make the change and see that result that I want? this makes me nervous. But it still doesnt make me want to run.
What's going on Brain? why you change your mood so rapidly?
I know I have blogged in the last few weeks about how great i am feeling, but not this week! Definately not this week. I feel flat, out of sorts, low. There is an anxiety bubble in my tummy and a lump in my throat. I know that it is normal to have highs and lows, i totally get that which is why I'm not in a panic over it, but that doesnt mean I like it.
Well I cant run home tonight cos i have to go to the dentist (joy!) but I am hoping that after that i will feel like going out and having amybe just a slow job around the tan.
I want to get that hunger back.
Cross your fingers for me x
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