I called my mum last night in tears.
I have been feeling really down lately and I am not really sure why... But i was certain that I wasnt oing to lose weight this week. I havent been bad, But i ceratinly havent been good. I feel NO different to what i did 8 weeks ago, My clothes dont feel different and i have only had 1 or 2 people say that i look different. So i was feeling very low and was DREADING getting on the scales this morning...
So you can imagine my double take when they told me that I was 1.7kg lighter than last monday...
Yes, thats right, somehow, even when i was sure i wouldnt, i lost 1.7kg last week.
That takes me to a grand total of 6.2kg in 9 weeks. Although its not where i wanted to be, i have to admit its still a great result.
onwards and upwards (although, really, downwards) x
Monday, 3 December 2012
Thursday, 29 November 2012
HELP! let me vent!
Ok so this post may not directly be linked to me losing weight, but i need to.... NEED TO get something off my chest...
I think that people that eat with their mouths open are just plain RUDE!
It is my pet hate to be able to hear someone eat.... it is like fingers down a black board.
You know what, its not even just eating with your mouth open, it is agressively chewing something aswell. There is just no need for it. Calm down, relax and enjoy what you are eating. You dont need to smash your carrot stick into tiny little pieces as hard as you can!!! Now, dont get me wrong, i know some foods are crunchy and that a little noise cant be helped, but there is a limit, I should know, i have done my fair share of eating.
I was bought up to acknowledge that eating with your mouth shut was polite and just plain good manners- Why do some grown people not understand this. I find it BEYOND frustrating!
Vent over, for now. x
I think that people that eat with their mouths open are just plain RUDE!
It is my pet hate to be able to hear someone eat.... it is like fingers down a black board.
You know what, its not even just eating with your mouth open, it is agressively chewing something aswell. There is just no need for it. Calm down, relax and enjoy what you are eating. You dont need to smash your carrot stick into tiny little pieces as hard as you can!!! Now, dont get me wrong, i know some foods are crunchy and that a little noise cant be helped, but there is a limit, I should know, i have done my fair share of eating.
I was bought up to acknowledge that eating with your mouth shut was polite and just plain good manners- Why do some grown people not understand this. I find it BEYOND frustrating!
Vent over, for now. x
Monday, 26 November 2012
How do people make it through life without a sister?
Upon reading my blog, GG sent me this...
http://voices.yahoo.com/causes-weight-gain-instead-weight-loss-while-6282144.html
Could i be any luckier than to have the 2 best friends ever, who also happen to be my sisters?
Sigh x
http://voices.yahoo.com/causes-weight-gain-instead-weight-loss-while-6282144.html
Could i be any luckier than to have the 2 best friends ever, who also happen to be my sisters?
Sigh x
Black Monday.
Today is a very Black day!
i dont want to talk to anyone, i dont want to see anyone, i want to stay in bed all day.
I havent felt this low in a REALLY long time!
i actually put on 100grams this week and I know its not much and i have still lost over 4 kgs in 6 weeks, but it hit me really hard. I am working so hard and trying with all of my will poweer to make this work, so when i take a step backwards i feel like a major failure.
All I want is to lose weight. Seriously! I would give up nearly everything in my life to be able to to lose the weight that i want.... It is so hard, doing this. Motivating myself, keeping in the end point in sight, knowing that what i am soing should be working...
You know, even last night I really just wanted to chill out on the couch, but I went for a run. It was the last thing i wanted to do, I had just got home from my parents house and really just felt like lying down and watching a movie, but i DIDNT!!!!!!
I still havent had any alcohol in 3 weeks, i dont eat chocolate or lollies, i dont have soft drink.... Seriously. what the frick! I am so angry and devastated about this week, completely crushed!
i dont want to talk to anyone, i dont want to see anyone, i want to stay in bed all day.
I havent felt this low in a REALLY long time!
i actually put on 100grams this week and I know its not much and i have still lost over 4 kgs in 6 weeks, but it hit me really hard. I am working so hard and trying with all of my will poweer to make this work, so when i take a step backwards i feel like a major failure.
All I want is to lose weight. Seriously! I would give up nearly everything in my life to be able to to lose the weight that i want.... It is so hard, doing this. Motivating myself, keeping in the end point in sight, knowing that what i am soing should be working...
You know, even last night I really just wanted to chill out on the couch, but I went for a run. It was the last thing i wanted to do, I had just got home from my parents house and really just felt like lying down and watching a movie, but i DIDNT!!!!!!
I still havent had any alcohol in 3 weeks, i dont eat chocolate or lollies, i dont have soft drink.... Seriously. what the frick! I am so angry and devastated about this week, completely crushed!
Thursday, 22 November 2012
Oops....
I havent had a very good week this week, at least thats how I feel...
I feel like i havent stuck to my eating like i should have been, not that i have been bad, havent eaten anything really that bad or had any alcohol or soft drink but i just feel as though i have been letting the odd thing slide... And i have had some lollies at work today... and instead of having rice crackers with tzatsiki for lunch i have been having chicken & mayo baguettes and the like... this makes me worried.
Also, my excersise hasnt been as full on as normal. Had horrible leg pains monday night and only walked around the tan before catcing the tram home... Had a rest on tuesday night cos i was off being social and just went for a walk around the tan last night with a friend...
SO... i have 4 days (3 and 1/2, really) to kick my arse back into gear.
Tonight, run round the tan AND netball. Steak and Veggies for dinner. Lock that in!
Going back down Geelong way on the weekend to see my parents, i will just make sure i dont eat too much and i will do some runs down there, nothing like a bit of fresh country air in your lungs...
God i hope i still have a good result this week, i will be devo'd if i havent lost a good amount....
Fingers crossed x
I feel like i havent stuck to my eating like i should have been, not that i have been bad, havent eaten anything really that bad or had any alcohol or soft drink but i just feel as though i have been letting the odd thing slide... And i have had some lollies at work today... and instead of having rice crackers with tzatsiki for lunch i have been having chicken & mayo baguettes and the like... this makes me worried.
Also, my excersise hasnt been as full on as normal. Had horrible leg pains monday night and only walked around the tan before catcing the tram home... Had a rest on tuesday night cos i was off being social and just went for a walk around the tan last night with a friend...
SO... i have 4 days (3 and 1/2, really) to kick my arse back into gear.
Tonight, run round the tan AND netball. Steak and Veggies for dinner. Lock that in!
Going back down Geelong way on the weekend to see my parents, i will just make sure i dont eat too much and i will do some runs down there, nothing like a bit of fresh country air in your lungs...
God i hope i still have a good result this week, i will be devo'd if i havent lost a good amount....
Fingers crossed x
Tuesday, 20 November 2012
Only Human
Last night, despite a great result from the previous week, was one of my hardest tan expeditions to date.
On Sunday i went for a run and man did I push it, it was the BEST run i have done in the last 5 weeks, i really pushed myself to run that little bit harder and i felt amazing for it. I felt different while i was running and stronger and fitter and totally cuffed with myself.
Last night, different story. Different person it felt like.
I have been writing about how good running is making me feel and how it is such a great decision and i love it and its great and blah blah blah blah, well let me tell you, it certainly was not the case last night!
I wanted to crawl under a park bench and cry a little and maybe take a nap!
My legs were killing me, KILLING me and my body did just not want to do it, my mind wasnt there either. Honestly, it was just awful. So after i ran half the way and habbled the rest (God, i can imagine how pathetic i looked) i called my mum (Bless!) and had a massive whinge, perhaps a few tears, dont judge me, and got on the tram to take me up Toorak road. yes, the tram. yes, i felt massive amounts of guilt. But the worst part was the frustration. It has been 5 long weeks and i am starting to het results but i still have a day when i cant do it. i wanted to punch something last night, like really just unleash a beat down.... lucky i was alone!
But you know what? I AM only human, i am allowed to have an off day. I am allowed to hurt and struggle occasionally. And i most certainly am allowed to get frustrated and angry.
So tonight I am going to be social so i actually cant excercise and i am hoping a rest for 1 night will do me some good.
I will just have to punicsh the track tomorrow night. x
On Sunday i went for a run and man did I push it, it was the BEST run i have done in the last 5 weeks, i really pushed myself to run that little bit harder and i felt amazing for it. I felt different while i was running and stronger and fitter and totally cuffed with myself.
Last night, different story. Different person it felt like.
I have been writing about how good running is making me feel and how it is such a great decision and i love it and its great and blah blah blah blah, well let me tell you, it certainly was not the case last night!
I wanted to crawl under a park bench and cry a little and maybe take a nap!
My legs were killing me, KILLING me and my body did just not want to do it, my mind wasnt there either. Honestly, it was just awful. So after i ran half the way and habbled the rest (God, i can imagine how pathetic i looked) i called my mum (Bless!) and had a massive whinge, perhaps a few tears, dont judge me, and got on the tram to take me up Toorak road. yes, the tram. yes, i felt massive amounts of guilt. But the worst part was the frustration. It has been 5 long weeks and i am starting to het results but i still have a day when i cant do it. i wanted to punch something last night, like really just unleash a beat down.... lucky i was alone!
But you know what? I AM only human, i am allowed to have an off day. I am allowed to hurt and struggle occasionally. And i most certainly am allowed to get frustrated and angry.
So tonight I am going to be social so i actually cant excercise and i am hoping a rest for 1 night will do me some good.
I will just have to punicsh the track tomorrow night. x
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